It is those little things that keep you going, that makes each day so much more worth looking forward to. I don't always live for myself, neither do I live for others.
But when you start stripping those layers off and get down to the core,
why are we here? Can we keep on going without those little or big things?
I've given it some thought, and for me, I can. Keep on going that is.
Because those little things never cease to exist for me.
Unless the world comes to an end by 2012.
Then I won't be able to graduate from Law School and save the world.
I love it here in Cambridge, I just hope I could do so much more.
I have space to just grow and grow.
I just don't know what fertiliser to put in as yet.
But I will! =]
Tuesday, 17 November 2009
Tuesday, 15 September 2009
the wait is OVER.
THE visa is FINALLY ready.
after 8 working days.
*makes a little jig*
the tormenting wait, the pressure, the agony.
good-bye. I am not going to miss you.
visa visa here I come!
plus my grads card application and collecting my bank draft + X-ray at the YK office.
like finally. =DD
going to Cambridge seems much more real now.
8 months ago I still felt like I was threading on thin ice,
worrying how on earth to fund myself to Cam.
thank you God.
after 8 working days.
*makes a little jig*
the tormenting wait, the pressure, the agony.
good-bye. I am not going to miss you.
visa visa here I come!
plus my grads card application and collecting my bank draft + X-ray at the YK office.
like finally. =DD
going to Cambridge seems much more real now.
8 months ago I still felt like I was threading on thin ice,
worrying how on earth to fund myself to Cam.
thank you God.
Wednesday, 9 September 2009
RAWR.
visa visa please be done,
i don't wanna wait for a month,
all the waiting tortures me so,
since i've only got 20 days to go!
i know the guy at VFS told me to check after 5 days
and today is only the 4th day.
yet people have been telling me that they got their visas within 2-3 days.
then it struck me,PEAK PERIOD.
splendid.RAWR.
i don't wanna wait for a month,
all the waiting tortures me so,
since i've only got 20 days to go!
i know the guy at VFS told me to check after 5 days
and today is only the 4th day.
yet people have been telling me that they got their visas within 2-3 days.
then it struck me,PEAK PERIOD.
splendid.RAWR.
Tuesday, 8 September 2009
ironic
isn't it ironic that this month is the Muslim's holy month of Ramadhan when at the same time it's the Hungry Ghost month for Chinese as well?
i seem to get struck with weird notions and thoughts recently.
i seem to get struck with weird notions and thoughts recently.
Monday, 31 August 2009
eh why?
not being able to see it doesn't mean it's not there nor it doesn't exist. even if you look harder you may not see.
oh that was just a sudden thought that popped into my long-time-not-used-and-slow-until-can-die-dunno-how-i'll-survive-law-school brain.
ANYWAY.
Sometimes I wonder why do I even blog.
I barely update, I seldom rant ( I like keeping personal stuff personal), I don't post pictures, I string incoherent sentences. There were many times I've wanted to delete my blog and then someone comes along and say : Leave it as it is! You can update whenever you want to, leave it stagnant if you've got nothing to write. At least it's there should you ever need it.
So yeah,it's been around till now. From crypticxsoul.modblog.com to blacksimplicity.livejournal.com to here. And I never stop thinking WHY.
I'm so fickle you know.How utterly disastrous.
oh that was just a sudden thought that popped into my long-time-not-used-and-slow-until-can-die-dunno-how-i'll-survive-law-school brain.
ANYWAY.
Sometimes I wonder why do I even blog.
I barely update, I seldom rant ( I like keeping personal stuff personal), I don't post pictures, I string incoherent sentences. There were many times I've wanted to delete my blog and then someone comes along and say : Leave it as it is! You can update whenever you want to, leave it stagnant if you've got nothing to write. At least it's there should you ever need it.
So yeah,it's been around till now. From crypticxsoul.modblog.com to blacksimplicity.livejournal.com to here. And I never stop thinking WHY.
I'm so fickle you know.How utterly disastrous.
Sunday, 30 August 2009
good night world
I figured I'd better hop into bed and wait till all becomes well the next morning.
By the way, Peanut turns 5! Happy birthday my bratty furball. I'm sorry I can't bring you to Camb, you would have fit in well with the Tudor portraits of Queen Victoria and your British ancestor.
By the way, Peanut turns 5! Happy birthday my bratty furball. I'm sorry I can't bring you to Camb, you would have fit in well with the Tudor portraits of Queen Victoria and your British ancestor.
overwhelmed
Suddenly an overwhelming feeling envelopes me. I can't identify the source, I am left utterly confused. Many thoughts whiz pass my mind like Ferraris on the freeway, and poof they disappear before I could identify or even remember them. It feels as though I have so many things to do, to remember, to take note of. But yet, I sit here scratching my head while trying my hardest to remember what I've missed.
I see my friends with their respective routes they have chosen. One a model, another an avid blogger. Some are very much caught up with their studies while some are simply waiting for the new term to start. Each to their own with different priorities. I do not question mine nor even doubt myself. It's just interesting to know that similar beginnings do not result in similar endings.
I saw people whom I met when I was working part-time. It's so reassuring that people remember and acknowledge me with a bright smile on their face. At least I'm not one of those who fade into oblivion once I'm no longer around. I met people who I may not see again for a long time. I have been so busy but I do not know what I have been busy with.
All my thoughts are so incoherent, it's like a huge jumble. A huge terrible mess. I simply abhor this feeling of helplessness. I forget things. I remember odd and random bits. I want to do many things at once but I end up not completing any.
Pre-quarter life crisis? Maybe. I just want the feeling of me having control over my thoughts back.
I see my friends with their respective routes they have chosen. One a model, another an avid blogger. Some are very much caught up with their studies while some are simply waiting for the new term to start. Each to their own with different priorities. I do not question mine nor even doubt myself. It's just interesting to know that similar beginnings do not result in similar endings.
I saw people whom I met when I was working part-time. It's so reassuring that people remember and acknowledge me with a bright smile on their face. At least I'm not one of those who fade into oblivion once I'm no longer around. I met people who I may not see again for a long time. I have been so busy but I do not know what I have been busy with.
All my thoughts are so incoherent, it's like a huge jumble. A huge terrible mess. I simply abhor this feeling of helplessness. I forget things. I remember odd and random bits. I want to do many things at once but I end up not completing any.
Pre-quarter life crisis? Maybe. I just want the feeling of me having control over my thoughts back.
Wednesday, 5 August 2009
random
it's a full moon tonight.
and it looks simply gorgeous.
it's not the ordinary white orb I normally see,
it has a pretty yellowish orange (or orangish yellow?) tinge to it.
I do wish I can see the stars too.
but leaning by my garden wall feeding mosquitoes when I actually intend to indulge in night sky-watching isn't all that pleasant.
stupid female mozzies who go lay eggs after drinking my blood and make mosquitoes one of those that never seem to ever go extinct.
oh did I mention that the moon's so lovely tonight?
and it looks simply gorgeous.
it's not the ordinary white orb I normally see,
it has a pretty yellowish orange (or orangish yellow?) tinge to it.
I do wish I can see the stars too.
but leaning by my garden wall feeding mosquitoes when I actually intend to indulge in night sky-watching isn't all that pleasant.
stupid female mozzies who go lay eggs after drinking my blood and make mosquitoes one of those that never seem to ever go extinct.
oh did I mention that the moon's so lovely tonight?
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
i'm gonna be a law student!
here I am sitting at my laptop,fine tuning my khazanah essay assignment on constitutionalism.
the brain flies to many places at 3.15 in the morning.
it suddenly dawned on me that I'll be reading Law, in Cambridge, on a khazanah scholarship.
I truly am very very blessed.
it hasn't really sinked in yet (probably because I have yet to receive my visa letter from Cambridge) hence it decides to knock me on my head to tell me that in the wee hours of the morning.
no more sciences *sigh*.
I mean, I really do have an interest for law mainly Human Rights,Environmental Law and maybe even Medical Law but...
I'm saying goodbye to my another passion,biology.
I'm quite pleased to bid physics adieu though.it was never my strong subject.
and to think I wanted to be an astronomer back in primary school and an aeronautical engineer in secondary school.phew.
that would have been courting death.
ironically,'peguam' has always been top of the 'cita-cita' list.
astronomer soon made way for pianist which made way for aeronautical engineer which then made way for writer,playwright,then something to do with the performing arts scene and most recently a veterinarian and/or a zoologist.but being a lawyer was there each year.
wanting to be close to animals remains an integral part of me,it's ok I didn't have the funds to do vet science.I'll do my other passion which is law and then use it to my advantage in future to help them.not bad eh? =D well at least I can say I have helped out at an animal clinic before,maybe it just doesn't suit me after all.
dad got me 2 books today,just mini guidebooks on the English Legal System and EU Law.
something for me to browse through.I'm not going to start studying mind you,but would just like to have a feel of how a non-science subject is like.of course with a law dictionary at close range.legal jargon can be quite scary. ><
almost all my life I've surrounded myself with sciences and math,and a dose of literature in SPM.
Law is a different ball game altogether.
is it what I think it is?or my image of it is inaccurate?
but whatever it is,
I shall survive Law School.in Cambridge.
I bet I'll have 'OMG I FEEL SO DUMB' moments.
but it's ok!it's normal,no?
and as I've mentioned in one of my earlier posts,
Live Eat Drink Sleep Poop Law. =DD
oohhh wow.I can so see myself in the next 3 years.how brilliant.
the brain flies to many places at 3.15 in the morning.
it suddenly dawned on me that I'll be reading Law, in Cambridge, on a khazanah scholarship.
I truly am very very blessed.
it hasn't really sinked in yet (probably because I have yet to receive my visa letter from Cambridge) hence it decides to knock me on my head to tell me that in the wee hours of the morning.
no more sciences *sigh*.
I mean, I really do have an interest for law mainly Human Rights,Environmental Law and maybe even Medical Law but...
I'm saying goodbye to my another passion,biology.
I'm quite pleased to bid physics adieu though.it was never my strong subject.
and to think I wanted to be an astronomer back in primary school and an aeronautical engineer in secondary school.phew.
that would have been courting death.
ironically,'peguam' has always been top of the 'cita-cita' list.
astronomer soon made way for pianist which made way for aeronautical engineer which then made way for writer,playwright,then something to do with the performing arts scene and most recently a veterinarian and/or a zoologist.but being a lawyer was there each year.
wanting to be close to animals remains an integral part of me,it's ok I didn't have the funds to do vet science.I'll do my other passion which is law and then use it to my advantage in future to help them.not bad eh? =D well at least I can say I have helped out at an animal clinic before,maybe it just doesn't suit me after all.
dad got me 2 books today,just mini guidebooks on the English Legal System and EU Law.
something for me to browse through.I'm not going to start studying mind you,but would just like to have a feel of how a non-science subject is like.of course with a law dictionary at close range.legal jargon can be quite scary. ><
almost all my life I've surrounded myself with sciences and math,and a dose of literature in SPM.
Law is a different ball game altogether.
is it what I think it is?or my image of it is inaccurate?
but whatever it is,
I shall survive Law School.in Cambridge.
I bet I'll have 'OMG I FEEL SO DUMB' moments.
but it's ok!it's normal,no?
and as I've mentioned in one of my earlier posts,
Live Eat Drink Sleep Poop Law. =DD
oohhh wow.I can so see myself in the next 3 years.how brilliant.
Tuesday, 14 July 2009
ol' grouch
i've been feeling grouchy and annoyed for no utter reason.
and yes,i think it's PMS.
which is rare.
and hence very very bad when i do get it.
chocolates help a huge deal but stuffing them in my face in excess is not a very good idea
since i won't be using the excess energy.
so i turn to my next source of cheerup-er, my adorable little bratty furball, Peanut.
(he's my pomeranian btw.he's round and brown.)
i cuddled him, he licks my face and turns the frown the right way up.
i bury my face in his thick fur, and then i realised.
i hadn't given him a shower for more than a week.
oh shoot.damn potong steam.
ANYWAY.
my essay on constitutionalism for Khazanah is almost done. apparently doing it at home is much more fruitful than the feeble attempts back in my aunt's place in subang.heh.
but being the paranoid freak that I am,I just wanna re-read and only submit it on thursday which is one day before the friday deadline. XD
oh yeah! I was in KL for 9 days for Wen Li's birthday, Khazanah's Scholar Development Programme, lunch with Bobby Greg Ruben Geoffrey Terrence SuLin HuiJuin WernChia, yum cha with the Cambridge freshers and year-two-to-be bunch. I didn't have time to meet up with the UTAR guys though as I had to do research for my assignment. I'm awfully sorry!
apart from that, quite an eventful trip i would say!
looking forward to travel abit before i leave in sept, and of course catching up with my friends and family.
oh no.just remembered. I'm going back to my secondary school this friday to give some sort of talk to my juniors. wonder what I should touch on, hmm?
and yes,i think it's PMS.
which is rare.
and hence very very bad when i do get it.
chocolates help a huge deal but stuffing them in my face in excess is not a very good idea
since i won't be using the excess energy.
so i turn to my next source of cheerup-er, my adorable little bratty furball, Peanut.
(he's my pomeranian btw.he's round and brown.)
i cuddled him, he licks my face and turns the frown the right way up.
i bury my face in his thick fur, and then i realised.
i hadn't given him a shower for more than a week.
oh shoot.damn potong steam.
ANYWAY.
my essay on constitutionalism for Khazanah is almost done. apparently doing it at home is much more fruitful than the feeble attempts back in my aunt's place in subang.heh.
but being the paranoid freak that I am,I just wanna re-read and only submit it on thursday which is one day before the friday deadline. XD
oh yeah! I was in KL for 9 days for Wen Li's birthday, Khazanah's Scholar Development Programme, lunch with Bobby Greg Ruben Geoffrey Terrence SuLin HuiJuin WernChia, yum cha with the Cambridge freshers and year-two-to-be bunch. I didn't have time to meet up with the UTAR guys though as I had to do research for my assignment. I'm awfully sorry!
apart from that, quite an eventful trip i would say!
looking forward to travel abit before i leave in sept, and of course catching up with my friends and family.
oh no.just remembered. I'm going back to my secondary school this friday to give some sort of talk to my juniors. wonder what I should touch on, hmm?
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