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Emo is very un-cool.

Know what is?

The waves spread by being cheerful and bubbly.

That makes everyone happy.

When everyone's happy, they become nicer people.

then the world becomes a much nicer place, don't you think so?

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Baby steps.

It doesn't really matter how far you've moved.

As long as you've moved, even an inch forwards, that makes all the difference.

Yes, I have indeed moved, albeit a little.

And I will continue taking baby steps to inch myself forward.

Loves!

Gibberish.

It's 2010. I don't know why but this new decade doesn't seem any different to me. No hype, no excitement. I just felt that it's just an extension of last year.

Yet many things have happened in 2009. I had quite an emotional ride. Hopes dashed and relived, dreams partially fulfilled, experienced new things, get to know how society works, met new people, and most significantly, my first term in Cambridge.

Yet, as I type this, I can't really identify what this new year holds for me, or what I would like to strive for. The obvious 'doing well in uni' remains as always, to every aspiring student whether in school, college, or uni. BUT. I want to be better, I want to learn more, I want to do more. But what is that 'more'?

Hence my new year resolution for this year. I shall keep my thoughts open and embark on a journey of self-discovery. A journey of exploring & finding once again the things that make me tick, things that make me convulse in laughter, things that make me believe that it is worth fighting for, and things that no matter what, keep me going all the time. I will NOT allow myself to be engulfed in the workload that Cambridge throws upon me (which would prove a big challenge to be honest). I will NOT allow myself room for doubts. Enjoy all the little things and revel in all the opportunities made available to me by one of the top universities in the world. Be bold enough to try but not stupid enough to allow it to take over everything else. Yes, 2010 seems much brighter now. It shall not be another mundane year. It shall be a year where I will grow.

Hope all you people out there find 2010 a year filled with chances. It's all about making use of them!

Thoughts.

It is those little things that keep you going, that makes each day so much more worth looking forward to. I don't always live for myself, neither do I live for others.
But when you start stripping those layers off and get down to the core,
why are we here? Can we keep on going without those little or big things?

I've given it some thought, and for me, I can. Keep on going that is.
Because those little things never cease to exist for me.
Unless the world comes to an end by 2012.
Then I won't be able to graduate from Law School and save the world.

I love it here in Cambridge, I just hope I could do so much more.
I have space to just grow and grow.
I just don't know what fertiliser to put in as yet.
But I will! =]

the wait is OVER.

THE visa is FINALLY ready.
after 8 working days.
*makes a little jig*

the tormenting wait, the pressure, the agony.
good-bye. I am not going to miss you.

visa visa here I come!
plus my grads card application and collecting my bank draft + X-ray at the YK office.

like finally. =DD
going to Cambridge seems much more real now.
8 months ago I still felt like I was threading on thin ice,
worrying how on earth to fund myself to Cam.
thank you God.

RAWR.

visa visa please be done,
i don't wanna wait for a month,
all the waiting tortures me so,
since i've only got 20 days to go!


i know the guy at VFS told me to check after 5 days
and today is only the 4th day.
yet people have been telling me that they got their visas within 2-3 days.
then it struck me,PEAK PERIOD.
splendid.RAWR.

ironic

isn't it ironic that this month is the Muslim's holy month of Ramadhan when at the same time it's the Hungry Ghost month for Chinese as well?

i seem to get struck with weird notions and thoughts recently.

eh why?

not being able to see it doesn't mean it's not there nor it doesn't exist. even if you look harder you may not see.

oh that was just a sudden thought that popped into my long-time-not-used-and-slow-until-can-die-dunno-how-i'll-survive-law-school brain.

ANYWAY.

Sometimes I wonder why do I even blog.
I barely update, I seldom rant ( I like keeping personal stuff personal), I don't post pictures, I string incoherent sentences. There were many times I've wanted to delete my blog and then someone comes along and say : Leave it as it is! You can update whenever you want to, leave it stagnant if you've got nothing to write. At least it's there should you ever need it.

So yeah,it's been around till now. From crypticxsoul.modblog.com to blacksimplicity.livejournal.com to here. And I never stop thinking WHY.

I'm so fickle you know.How utterly disastrous.

good night world

I figured I'd better hop into bed and wait till all becomes well the next morning.

By the way, Peanut turns 5! Happy birthday my bratty furball. I'm sorry I can't bring you to Camb, you would have fit in well with the Tudor portraits of Queen Victoria and your British ancestor.

overwhelmed

Suddenly an overwhelming feeling envelopes me. I can't identify the source, I am left utterly confused. Many thoughts whiz pass my mind like Ferraris on the freeway, and poof they disappear before I could identify or even remember them. It feels as though I have so many things to do, to remember, to take note of. But yet, I sit here scratching my head while trying my hardest to remember what I've missed.

I see my friends with their respective routes they have chosen. One a model, another an avid blogger. Some are very much caught up with their studies while some are simply waiting for the new term to start. Each to their own with different priorities. I do not question mine nor even doubt myself. It's just interesting to know that similar beginnings do not result in similar endings.

I saw people whom I met when I was working part-time. It's so reassuring that people remember and acknowledge me with a bright smile on their face. At least I'm not one of those who fade into oblivion once I'm no longer around. I met people who I may not see again for a long time. I have been so busy but I do not know what I have been busy with.

All my thoughts are so incoherent, it's like a huge jumble. A huge terrible mess. I simply abhor this feeling of helplessness. I forget things. I remember odd and random bits. I want to do many things at once but I end up not completing any.

Pre-quarter life crisis? Maybe. I just want the feeling of me having control over my thoughts back.